Existentialism: I wrote this after a big fat wank
I have always been dexterous at toggling between dual lanes,
one foot in each zone,
disliking certainty and absolutism,
free reign relativism is wonderful,
keeping a good balance between the whites and the blacks,
scavenging through the lines on a chessboard,
without knowing how the game is played,
but getting by anyway.
It is quite troubling to be filled with so much desire,
yet lack it at the same time.
I want everything and I want nothing.
I am
floating through time and space:
oscillating, tessellating,
hey-
haven’t I fucking been here before?
I know who I am,
don’t challenge me.
Cover by Leilani Angel