Existentialism: I wrote this after a big fat wank

I have always been dexterous at toggling between dual lanes,

one foot in each zone,

disliking certainty and absolutism,

free reign relativism is wonderful,

keeping a good balance between the whites and the blacks,

scavenging through the lines on a chessboard,

without knowing how the game is played,

but getting by anyway.

It is quite troubling to be filled with so much desire,

yet lack it at the same time.

I want everything and I want nothing.

I am

floating through time and space:

oscillating, tessellating,

hey-

haven’t I fucking been here before?

I know who I am,

don’t challenge me.

Cover by Leilani Angel